I got my new degree goggles yay.
I no longer have to swim blind.
awesome..
we swam lots and did lunges and leg raises i almost died.
and then played games..
my group lost for the relay thing and had to "muah chee" on the sand..
Luckily everyone forgot so we needn't do it.. weird.
went to clementi for dinner and home sweet home..
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I feel like this relationship is so one way..
and i get so drained out everytime i talk to you,
and sometimes i even have to watch what i say.
I mean i'm glad we're friends and stuff,
but its like a bit too much for me.
Its like i try so hard to like help you feel better about stuff,
but i feel like you don't care anything about me,
or what i did, or how i feel about something.
How is "okay." tell me that you're interested.
You can at least pretend like you care.

Or maybe sometimes i say something out of line unintentionally to you
and then you like get annoyed...
We might as well not talk,
because everytime it leaves me hanging there.
and i don't like that feeling.
totally not helping my emotions.
Maybe its exam stress, maybe its selfishness.
I don't know.
Everything is so unclear right now its hard for me to know anything.
I love you and everything, i just wished you would love me back even a little.
Sigh. I'm glad i have lots of friends to compensate for this.
Maybe i'm just thinking too much,
I shouldn't even expect ANYTHING from you.
I should love everyone without holding back.


if you're foaming and thinking i'm in a relationship,
you just wasted saliva and brain signals.
Relationship can also be between mother and daughter,
father son, friend to friend.

Got some bad news today too..
I feel like crying.
Hope nothing bad happens..
Man.
Only at times like this that you know how important that person is to you.